"Enter the medicated paradox of Hannah Neurotica. Explicit, blunt, timorous, flawed and smothered in hearts"-ZINE WORLD

FYI:
Just a quick note to let you know my laptop is still broken. I have sent it in to MAC and will hopefully have it back in less then 10 days.

In the meantime Ax Wound is wrapping up. It was supposed to be out on Halloween but with the computer problem I have had to redo and re-edit a lot of pieces. I can tell you the issue is by far the largest and most ambitious creative undertaking of my life. Before you know it the issue will be in your hands.

I’m very excited! Even though my hands are perminently covered in ink and glue =) This has been an artistic experience like no other in my life. Seriously. So much love in this zine, its insane.

Please check back here for updates!

More soon!

Hearts & Butcher Knives,
Hannah

In case you haven’t heard I am head over heels in love with two ladies who are my official guardian devils: The Soska Sisters. These Twisted Twins have so much talent it’s insane. Not only do they write, direct, and produce but they also act and do ALL their own stunts. It’s just so crazy how awesome they are. The new issue of Ax Wound will feature an in depth interview with these lovelies but in the meantime PLEASE please show some support and vote for their 7 min short film BAD GIRLS. It is an entry in the Blood Shots 48 hr film contest. All you need to do is watch it, realize how awesome it is, then send an email to:

bigsmashproductions@gmail.com w/ the title name BAD GIRLS in the subject line.

PLEASE HELP SUPPORT THESE AWESOME WOMEN AND THEIR AWESOME SHORT!

http://www.3ammagazine.com/3am/five-for-hannah-neurotica/

Oh, and my computer is back up and fuckin’ running. Time to get back to work bitches! xo

I am currently w/o a working computer. Once it gets fixed I will be updating this site, the WiH website, zinecore radio site, etc etc etc.
In the meantime I am working my ass off getting the new issue of Ax Wound out and availible for purchase by Halloween. Thats like, fucking, soon! There are no words to express the level of excitement i’m feeling about this new issue. It is by far the biggest, most ambitious, challenging, artistic project I have ever undertaken and I hope when you hold this new issue in your hands you will feel the level of love and respect and HARD WORK that has been poured into each page by not only myself but all the amazing contributors.

Later this week I will scan the Innards (contents) page so you can really see whats to come in this new issue that iv been brewing for YEARS. it’s taken forever for me to get it out but I have stopped beating myself up about that. In fact I take pride in the work I publish and I think back to when i was at Antioch and working on the literary journal. My professor said why publish an issue if there are no good submissions? it’s like, why publish crap just because you want to meet a deadline!? I have sat on this issue for good reason: waiting for a nice good fat healthy chunk of amazing content to make publishing Ax Wound worth while and i am swimming in some incredible work right now that makes me want to cry when i think about how awesome it all has come to be and how it all flows together…its a perfect puzzle and all the pieces just finally slide nicely together. You;ll see in 11 short days when it goes on sale! …..

In the meantime check out the new issue of FANGORIA. I had written a letter to Tony the editor last month or so about how he called the readers “fanboys” and the lack of attention FEMALE horror FANGIRLS get…. due to that short & sweet email the new Elegy is called “GRRRRRL POWER.” And about exactly what you think. I feel so proud that i can be part of helping to bring women attention they fucking deserve. And so can you, WiH Month is coming up in Feb and the more people who get involved the more revoloutionary this will be!
Here is a b&w scan of the elegy!
Thank you Fangoria for the props <3

hearts & butcher knives,
hannah

http://fangoria.com/features/21-fearful-features/4235-prepping-for-women-in-horror-month.html

Exciting! Please read & leave your thoughts <3

I am Last Doorway Productions[October Bleeding Beauty of the Month]

Read FULL interview w/ me about women/horror/fake blood/bad dreams/sunny side up eggs in my underpants.
& just because you cannot get enough:

On Friday I had the honor of being on CBC Radio discussing women & horror films. The segment was incredibly short though so not much depth was able to take place and the host was less than desirable. She was not taking any of us ladies (me, Jovanka, Aviva) seriously and my draw dropped when she wasted a decent amount of air time on what Jovanka looked like and “how it effects her dating.” For a show dedicated to bringing awareness to women horror fans why waste our time talking about our LOOKS? Seems so bizarre and counter productive and so many assumptions about her sexuality were made in that comment. But anyway, even though she didn’t really listen to what was being said I know a lot of you did and that makes my guts so happy. I feel like it was just so fucking  cool to be asked, I mean…people care what I have to say? Really? A lot of friends have told me I sounded “great” but lemme just give you the real deal of what was going on before I got on the air.  I seriously almost puked on myself right before.  SERIOUSLY. I am amazed it didn’t happen cause I felt the nauseous rumble and gag. I was so fucking nervous. I woke up at 5 am in a panic that I overslept & then barely made it back to sleep for another hour. At 6:30 am I headed over to my day job office because I needed a land line and only have a cell phone. I downed a Red Bull Cola, a strawberry yougert, and a Powerbar which made me gag. I was jittery and flushed. I was doing the breathing they taught me in the psych hospital only 2 weeks prior. All three things I normally never have to eat so it just made me feel way sicker, I didn’t wanna take the extra time to walk & get coffee & bagel even though there was way more then enough time. It was like when your wanted someone you like to call you and would wait by the fucking phone. I watched it and time was just flying. Each minute made me more and more sick.  I was just ON EDGE and couldn’t take any anxiety meds because I was already on my Ritalin so i could focus on the days work ahead.. I paced the clinic for an hour and made notes in my journal. Trying to guess what they might ask and what I might say. All of it sounded so much better in my head and on the page then it did coming out of my mouth. And honestly, the notes became so totally irrelevant once the show started because I was to nervous to even look at the paper I wrote on. The one part I kept focusing on was: HAVE FUN! RELAX! Its Just A Phone Conversation and nobody is listening! Its weird how something can be so totally exciting and yet cause such fucking distress. A good type of distress but distress nonetheless. I would fucking love to be on some radio show like that again but each time i’ll have anxiety and each time i’ll get back up and do it. It’s so odd,  I get that way before doing an episode of ZINECORE Radio too. Just as bad. Someone once asked me “omg, how fun is doing zinecore!” and my response was: “It ruins my entire day!” I get so worked up about it and make myself sick. It’s funny because the night before the CBC interview Jovanka said to me on Facebook something along the lines of “I have to wake up and go into the studio, you get to be in your Pjs.” For most people this would totally be the case. However I was a wreck and thinking I would make the hugest fool of myself and say the dumbest things and never be able to take them back. I still cringe when I hear some of my answers. When I listened to it back I hide my head inside my shirt! seriously!  Like when the host is talking about the Janet Lee getting stabbed in Psycho and “not having the knife” i wanted to respond with how beautifully shot that scene was-never any real knife penetration and it was actually a man dressed as his mother so in many ways a woman was in fact holding the knife. The controlling mother of Norman,ya know? But instead I couldn’t breath and just vomited words and randomly said the word “gender.” Ha. So far people are saying I didn’t sound to stupid so that makes me relax. I have an upcoming episode of Zinecore tomorrow and already my nervous are fluttering and taunting me. My heart pounding My teeth clenching; jaw hurting; stomach aching. Its amazing I haven’t shit on myself yet.  What if my guests don’t call in? What if they do call in and I run out of things to ask? What if I fuck up and something horribly embarrassing happens? It’s so fucking weird that despite the immense anxiety I have I still do these things. The reason? Because I have no choice. I HAVE TOO. I feel like it my guts this is something I need to produce and get out into the world and my anxiety has to take the backseat to my ambitions no matter how physically uncomfortable it is. I always feel so euphoric after an episode but it takes awhile for my adrenaline to return to a less intense state. I laugh to myself when people tell me they are to nervous to come on my show because they have no idea how truly terrified I am to be hosting it. But when the show is over I feel truly fucking accomplished, I created a communal experience that will always exists in some form. It’s hard when people write mean things to me but I just have a tantrum then come back twice as hard. And now, what the fuck: i’m launching Ax Wound Radio. What is wrong with me!? On that note: Johanna Fateman, Kathleen Hanna, and Jenna Freedman will be on zinecore tomorrow at 8pm. I hope I don’t faint before then. Speaking of which, Kathleen Hanna has a new blog: http://kathleenhanna.wordpress.com/

PREFACE: I wrote an entire manifesto over the course of the last three days about Women In Horror Month and my wonderful darling fucking computer must have hated it
Because it randomly deleted and cannot be retrieved. I spend a lot of time pounding the wall and even shed some tears over the loss but just as women have been given numerous setbacks through out history I won’t let this one stop me from re-writing as much as I can remember.

Take two:

FEBRUARY 2010: 1st Annual Women In Horror Recognition Month Manifesto version 1.5
(1.0 would be inaccurate as it was eaten by the monster in my laptop)

You may have seen my manic clogging up of your Facebook/Twitter/Myspace pages with a proposal for “FEBRUARY AS WOMEN IN HORROR RECOGNITION MONTH: February has 28 days so it seems appropriate PASS IT ON.” I posted it originally as just that- a proposal. That is no longer the case. Instead I am fucking claiming it. As a woman I have spent most of my life afraid to claim space for myself in the world. Building this website is about confronting that and from my impression I am so far from alone in this. It is not un-common for a lot of woman living in our openly patriarchal society to feel the burdens of their gender on a daily basis. Examples: Walking outside alone at night with the constant fear of attack, still being paid less for equal work, reproductive rights constantly threatened, body image self esteem massacres in women’s magazines/popular media, etc etc. So who’s to say I need some outside source to grant me their godly permission to claim February as WOMEN IN HORROR RECOGNITION MONTH? Easy: I don’t. Just like I didn’t need someone’s permission to start Ax Wound ‘Zine I don’t need anyone to grant the creation of this much needed month. So, in the spirit of punk rock DIY (Do-It-Yourself) and a little sprinkle of blood saturated glitter I officially claim February 2010 the first annual WOMEN IN HORROR RECOGNITION MONTH. If I have to celebrate by myself so be it but I really hope to have the support of horror fans of all genders! Now let’s get into the nitty-fucking-gritty about why this is necessary and how you can bring this alive from the dark cold underground where it lays dormant and waiting for us to animate.

The awesome feminist group Guerrilla Girls have a poster that reads: “Do women have to be naked to get into the Met. Museum? Less than 3% of the artists in the Modern Art sections are women, but 83% of the nudes are female.” If you look at the Oscars 94 % of the writing awards have gone to men and Best Director has never been awarded to a woman. Not to mention people of color getting only 3% of acting awards. 

Women are seen as a novelty item in horror. We are bloody babes and soon-to-be gut piles in peril. We are “horror chicks of the month”: almost every site dedicated to women in horror is about what they look like and how hot they are. I used to love the term “Scream Queen” but it no longer has any empowerment left. The Scream Queen ain’t no Final Girl; (and the Final Girl needs a serious make-over but we will get to that later). Even awesome production companies that I grew up on like TROMA Entertainment feature Tromettes; Women who have a very specific body type and promote the company the way a hooters girls promotes the chain restaurant. (This is nothing against you if you have or are Tromette, this is just a mere example of women’s current place in the horror world we can keep the Tromette but bring her up to date!). Women have to face body image issues all over the place in our culture, why must we also experience it in our favorite genre? Why do women have to be celebrated as strictly Tits & Ass & Blood. Why can’t we be recognized as “Scream Queens” who scream out with our artistic and creative abilities; qualities other then how we look. I mean, shit, a lot of Women love horror in very personal and passionate ways and are not wanting to be “Horror Babe of the Month.” We are writers, directors, producers, artists, eery musicians, creepy doll makers, FX artists. We are audience!

How often do you hear or some from these women? If you are not deep in the underground with publications like Ax Wound, Pretty/Scary, Chainsaw Mafia, etc you might not even know women are out there doing these things. Through doing Ax Wound I have met so many talented female horror writers/artists/filmmakers whose names aren’t even on the horror mainstream/b movie radar. We are dormant zombies who must rise up and take up space, push people out of the way, and say LOOK AT MY BRAINS!!!!!!

This is not to say we can’t have sexy horror babes but lets also just think about what “Sexy” means and whom we are allowing to defines sexy.

With the release of Twilight and other bullshit films/stories that are meant to appeal to the female audience (wait, sorry, I just puked in my mouth a little…EDIT: Thank you to Melissa Ann Cook who made a good point about why I shouldn’t bash Twilight fans or make them feel stupid. So, Even though I LOATHE it I still respect the wonderful women who like it and don’t want to make them feel bad. Thank you for speaking up Melissa!) I do think though that hollywood is sending a message that women want vampires who sparkle in the sun and girls who can’t make decisions for themselves. But that is just my opinion. I really just fear the onslaught of Chick Flick Horror or as the amazing Rebekah McKendry (one of the only woman who works for Fangoria) refers to it perfectly as: “Lifetime Horror.” There is an interview with Ms. McKendry in the new issue of Ax Wound but here is a sneak peak and one of my questions and her response:

AX WOUND: Why do you think there is a such a lack of womens voices in the horror genre? I worry that movies like Twilight are going to become “chick horror flicks.” As if women don’t want to see gore or view vampires that don’t glisten like gold in the sun. Do you think because of the success of Twilight Hollywood is going to get the impression
women want romantic horror? This concerns me. It’s like the stereotype that women don’t like porn but rather “erotica.”

REBEKAH MCKENDRY: I had a conversation about “chick horror” with one of my academic colleagues when the Sandra Bullock movie Premonition came out a few years back. We called it “Lifetime Horror”, as in it was like a horror movie for the Lifetime or Oxygen networks. These “chick flick” stereotypes have long existed and will no doubt continue for a long while. But I have to hand it to movies like Twilight, in the fact that they also act as a buffer to lead otherwise unsuspecting moviegoers into the world of horror. So many females have discovered a love of horror and vampires through movies like Twilight. It is the training wheels of horror before people get to the hardcore horror.
As much as I like to think that society is advanced and is so gender progressive, the points you give in your question become shining examples that we are not too far from our repressed days. We still hold the notion that if a female is into erotica and romantic vampires, than she has an interesting wild streak. However, if she likes hardcore horror and porn, then she is a heathen slut. I find the latter far more interesting to watch and study! [read full interview in the new issue!]

Speaking of Fangoria: On the website they recently posted an advance review of Jennifer’s Body (written by Diablo Cody) and someone commented with a sadly popular opinion: “I guess this is trying to appeal to more then just a horror audience, teen girls…” Okay HOLD THE FUCK UP. Are people so seriously clueless that they don’t realize teenage girls LOVE horror. I have no hard evidence other then my own experience and talking to tons of girls but teen girls LOVE horror movies. It’s like a rite of passage. We have sleepover parties and raid horror sections like junk food. Teen girls may buy into Twilight and have it be platform to step up to the REAL horror film but many girls have always deeply loved there Jason/Freddy/Michael’s and probably contribute a huge amount of money in rental (and late) fees. Teen girls are not what the media projects them as. Sure, there are plenty of girls and women who fucking HATE horror but there are also plenty of women (myself included) who hate “chick flicks” or any other genre. This is not about saying all girls love horror but that all women in the industry deserve recognition and respect on every creative level. We are not just props like a bin of rubber severed limbs.

Now, back to WOMEN IN HORROR RECOGNITION MONTH.

Every day we should recognize women in horror and bring attention their projects but having our own month works to bring AWARENESS. It helps bring attention to people who may not even realize how marginalized we are as artists in this genre.

In Carol Clovers wonderful book Men, Women, and Chainsaws she writes in her introduction: I want to stress, before I pass on to other matters, that the bias of my book is even more extreme than the bias of the overall horror audience. My interest in the male viewers stake in horror spectatorship is such that I have consigned to virtual invisibility all other members of the audience, despite the fact that their loyalty and engagement can be just as ardent and their stake in the genre just as deserving of attention…”

It is about time we give ourselves this much deserved attention.

I want to double and triple stress that this is not some fucking ego trip for me. This is coming from the bottom of my female horror loving heart. This month is not about me coming up with the idea but about how we can ALL TAKE ACTION to bring AWARENESS to women in the industry. Please help me brainstorm how people can go about this. And you do not need a vagina to  take part. Just like with any feminist issue if men don’t get involved NOTHING will change. It takes everyone to make a difference and I’m not separatist. So, men, please take note and help as well.

Here are some submitted thoughts I received from people about why they think WiH Month is important. Please add yours to the comments here and I will update this page and add your quote in this post as they roll in. (If you have a website include the URL and I will link to your site/project along with your quote).

“Why *shouldn’t* we recognize women in the horror industry?! That’s my question… we’re so commonly ignored by horror coverage: so many horror news websites, for example, also feature ‘boobs of the week!’ and such like. Dull. I think it’d be possible to celebrate women in horror by including men too, so if there’s any fear of it being an exclusive event, I don’t think that’s accurate. Hell, I think it’s worth celebrating the GUYS that women like too! The ones who do us proud!” - Nia Edwards-Behi (Writer)

“It’s just like guitar magazines. 9.9 times out of 10, anytime you see a female on the cover, she’s a model, not a guitarist… Fangoria can start by doing something about the disproportionately small amount of women they have in their hall of fame.” –Andrew Shearer (Gonzoriffic)

“I truly believe some of the best, strongest, and most empowering and challenging roles for women have been written in horror movies. Ripley in the Alien series, Regan in the Exorcist, Ginger in Ginger Snaps… Eli Roth’s Hostel 2 had an impressive display of badass bitches and femme fatales. It was incredibly empowering.
There are numerous women working behind the camera, too, that rarely get the recognition they deserve. Many people praise American Psycho, particularly Christian Bale’s Patrick Bateman, but if it wasn’t for their female director, Mary Harron, who spoke up for the film when mobs of enraged feminists protested it, the film would’ve never been made as they feared it would be too controversial. Women deserve recognition for how hard they work in the horror industry and a month that recognizes both their hard work and involvement would be a gore~geous way to thank them for the jobs that they do so well.” Jen Soska (Twisted Twin Productions)

“Because it isn’t just a boy’s game–everybody can play. Woman have made so many awesome contributions to the genre, even its subgenres. As with everything else, women are underestimated and under-represented. So few step up and become seen.A “women in horror month” would be beneficial in the respect that maybe more comments such as, “My favorite horror director is Mary Lambert” or “My favorite horror author is Lucy Snyder” would be common, and it would open new doors for not only the women trying to bring something to the table but for those who would have otherwise not known about the talent at all. It’ll give exposure to (real) talent that deserves it and hopefully it won’t be horror sexpot of the month type of shit. There should be a WiH Month because there needs to be one–a woman shouldn’t “have to” show her tits to gain exposure or fans. So of course I vote yay for a women in horror month. February is a good month for that.”-Mary Goff (horror writer/artist)

“Here are my thoughts on why this is an AWESOME idea:
- Because without women, the horror genre would be severely weakened. Could you imagine a horror film without a strong final girl or a bad ass vixen?
- Because after the countless trends the genre went through trying to revamp itself, femme-made horror (or horror with feminist sensibilities) represents THE unexplored sub genre that may once and for all help horror by injecting fresh blood that will help rejuvenate a genre in need actualization.
- Because we (women) have a right to tell sick & twisted stories!
- Because I want girls to be able to be loud and proud about being a chick who enjoys horror.
- Because I think women who work hard to devote their body of work to the genre should be celebrated.
Signed a woman who likes her films dark, raw and bloody”- Maude Michaud (Filmmaker)

“we need a women is horror month for all the girls in fuck-all-nowhere watching the texas chainsaw massacre movies one after the other and loving it, but not imagining in their wildest dreams that there might be some political and artist value and potential in this beloved past time. for all the girls, like me and you and her and her, who have ever surveyed people on whether death by chainsaw or death by axe would be worse (personally i think the axe would be worse). for all of us who are sick of hearing it’s just a “sexist genre” or a “guy’s thing”, who are dreaming of bonding with girls all over the world and claiming horror as our own. afterall, women are covered in blood once a month and most men are fuckin terrified when they go into the bathroom and see the blood in the toilet because they have never seen that much blood in their lives. girls are used to it.” -clementine cannibal (zinester/artist)

“I think it’s finally time for a WOMEN IN HORROR RECOGNITION MONTH to appear in our society and become a long standing tradition. If a black man can be voted president, why can’t we honor the women who give their life’s blood to making the genre what it is? There would be no horror if there were no women. It may currently be a man’s industry, but females are well on their way to claiming their artistic integrity, voice, and interest from the media with an army of screaming females behind them. Both independent and mainstream studios are picking up on this, and horror is about to get a strong, intellectual makeover. We demand equal opportunity murder, equal opportunity filmmaking, and equal opportunity. Period.” -Shannon Lark (Chainsaw Mafia)

“All to often women are overlooked in this genre as just the people to run around screaming with their boobs out and great bait for the villains. I know that many women like myself work hard to better and make it an even more entertaining aspect of cinema for the fans and viewers of the genre; and we deserve just as much recognition as our male counterparts. We are turning what was once a “boys game” into a level playing field and many women are kicking the males’ asses in the meantime. Maybe if more people recognize the quality of films and content that women are producing, we’d have less crap on our televisions.” -Dai Green (writer for HorrorNews.net)

“Awesome, long-overdue idea. I have no major problem with how women are represented in horror films perse (other than the boredom factor from having to sit through the same stereotypes constantly), but I do wish there was more diversity and more input from female filmmakers, writers etc. And as a woman who writes and puts on horror-related events I wish those of us behind the scenes would get more acknowledgment and encouragement so that people would stop thinking it’s “cute” that I’m a girl who likes horror films and start taking me fucking seriously! I, too, am sick of being a novelty, especially when I know there are a ton of us out there.” -Kier-La Janisse

“I’ve been a film critic for horror cinema for over ten years and I think this is a great idea. Women in horror movies/horror fiction definitely deserve recognition. And what would King Kong be without Fay Wray? What would Alien be without Ripley? (well we know what it would be, it’s crap) What would horror be without the great iconic heroines of Alfred Hitchcock, the Vampire femme fatales who became synonymous with Hammer Films, the stunning Barbra Steele, and all the great female antagonists of the Italian Giallo films; or the female heroines of the 1980s slashers who consistently defeated Freddy, Jason, Chucky and the rest. What would horror be without Barbra who annihilated the 50s era horror scream queen, kicked off her heels, saved herself from the monster and was so convincing in Night of the Living Dead. What would horror be without the struggle between good and evil defined in the performance of Linda Blair in The Exorcist? What would horror be without Shirley Jackson and her incredible Haunting of Hill House; which is still probably the greatest and most influential horror novel of the last one hundred years. Who can forget Mary Shelly, Anne Rice, Poppy Z. Brite, Nancy Collins, etc,Horror only stays relevant by staying in tune with the heart-beat of the culture; and horror can only stay relevant by having as many voices from as many different backgrounds and perspectives as possible. To eliminate important female figures or a female audience from horror is to destroy horror. It will doom it to stagnation and irrelevance. So it’s important to celebrate it.” -Jeffery J. Timbrell

“This is a wonderful idea. most importantly it is a symbol of solidarity, an opportunity to create community and open dialogue and reassure us all that we are not alone in our struggle to be heard above the sea of droning, douchebaggy voices that pervades the genre. and maybe someone will write the story they always wanted to, or start fucking around with some latex, or re-watch old films with new eyes and they’ll find a home in this, with us. It is also a good excuse to throw a party. and because we’re pretty.” –Rachael Deacon

WHAT COULD ONE DO DURING THE MONTH OF FEBRUARY TO BRING AWARENESS?

(I am going to put my ideas and you can also leave a comment with your ideas & I will add them to the list!)

• Host a local film screening, even if its in your living room with friends, and show movies made by women
• Write a blog post or to a member of the media about a woman in horror who isn’t getting enough attention
• Host a Women Horror Writers Reading at a local bookstore
• NOW ITS YOUR TURN- iv said enough: WHAT MIGHT YOU DO DURING THE MONTH TO BRING AWARENESS TO WOMEN IN THE HORROR INDUSTRY!?

SEND IN YOUR QUOTES and YOUR IDEAS and I WILL ADD THEM TO THIS POST! ALSO, PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD TO PEOPLE WHO MAY NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS BLOG/or re-post on your online website/facebook/etc.

HEARTS & BUTCHER KNIVES,

Hannah

P.S. THERE WILL BE AN OFFICIAL WEBSITE FOR WOMEN IN HORROR MONTH COMING SOON SO WE CAN KEEP TRACK OF WHAT PEOPLE ARE DOING TO RECOGNIZE WOMEN AND HOW WE CAN SUPPORT EACH OTHER! XXX

Hannah Neurotica: I knew a girl that dated a gynecologist. I always wondered how he could look at vagina’s every day and then be turned on by them at home with her. Does sex ever feel like work to you? Or is it not like that at all?

James Deen: Its not like that at all. It actually makes sex better because I don’t need to worry about making it a hot scene or doing a certain amount of time or positions or any of the other things that go on at work. Every guy is different that is just how it is for me.

Hannah: Are you always really turned on by the person you are having sex with or do you often have to really fake the attraction?

James: most the time I am really turned on by them. I think women are all beautiful and it is rare I find a girl I am not at least mostly attracted to. However, there are the occasional times i come to work and I am just horrified. On those days I just find one thing about the girl that I can focus on. For example, she has nice eyes, she has a nice ass, she has a pretty smile, good teeth, nice breath, nice hair, good manners, etc.

Hannah: How many times is the act interrupted during filming? Or does the camera keep rolling till your done?

James: it all depends on who the director is. I work for some people who start and stop a million times and want to over direct. I personally believe that the best scenes are the ones where there are no stops. The directors that just “catch the moment” will in my opinion always have the best movies because they will allow the two people to really get into each other and just have fun. Most of the stuff I do is for those directors. So for me the scenes you see are pretty much what happened on set.

Hannah: Have you always been comfortable naked in front of people? What is your first exhibitionist memory?

James: I always have been. I went to a preschool that I would always run around naked at. I really love the attention and I think it is fun. The first exhibitionist thing I did was when I was about 14 or 15 when I was “practicing” for porn. I would go to parties and raves and such and have sex in front of everyone. it was sooooooooooo hot

Hannah: So, like in movies you have sex with amazing looking women. Are you able to get off on sleeping with more “normal” looking women? Like people who don’t have Brazilian waxes, expensive stylists, etc? Has porn affected your view of how a woman’s body should look?

James: the girls in porn really aren’t any different then the “normal” girls you speak of. Most of them don’t have Brazilian waxes they just shave and there are not many if any expensive stylists in the business. Pretty much the only difference between a porn girls looks and the girls walking around everyday is that the porn girl sat in a makeup chair for an hour in order to make them camera ready. I personally hate make up. I think that girls look better when they look the way they actually do.

Hannah: What are your fans like? Any really weird/bizzare/crazy fan stories you can share?

James: I don’t have fans. I am a living prop.

Hannah: I have read some articles about men & porn and it says that very thing–how men are merely a prop in the industry. Do you really not have males or females trying to contact you? I find that so hard to believe. You are a very hot guy

James: thank you. I do have people contacting me on myspace every now and then but I would not consider them fans. Just cool people who are interested in porn. I consider a fan someone who would buy a movie because I was in it. I don’t think there is anyone out there like that. If there is cool. I don’t wanna fool myself, I am not a star. I am just a kid who likes to have sex.

Hannah: Do you ever worry about Sexually Transmitted Infections? Recently on Burning Angel Joanna showed the use of condoms in a silly way. Is there mandatory STI testing?

James: it is mandatory to be tested every 30 days. That video was a joke and nothing more. We were all tested. I worry about them everyday… because the tests are every 30 days it gives a lot of room for infection. They really are more of a comfort blanket than a prevention technique. I wish people were responsible enough to have safe sex all the time however not everyone is.

Hannah: How did you cum to be involved with Burning Angel?

James: Joanna gave me a job. I like working for them they let me do whatever I want it is nice to have that kind of freedom in a working environment.

Hannah: So, there are so many rumors in internet land surrounding you & Joanna Angel. Are you dating or just really good fuck buddies or..?

James: no comment

Hannah: Fiiiiiine! So, there are a lot of assumptions people make about porn actors. Two of the biggest are: 1). that people who make porn come from broken homes or 2).that all women in porn are rape victims. This makes me wonder just about family in general. Do your parents or relatives know what you do or have they found out? How do you handle that?

James: all my family knows what i do. they are ok with it. they obviously rather i be doing something else but they love me and will continue to regardless of what i do. i am lucky to have a good family. as far as everyone else that is none of my business unless they decide to talk about it. i can’t speak on behalf of other people in the industry.

Hannah: Is there anything you do on camera that you only do for the $ but really don’t find pleasure in?

James: no if I didn’t want to do something I would just not do it. If I were against something I would insist on massive amounts of money for it. I always say everyone has a price for everything. I am included in this. For example I don’t have any desire to be shit on… ever, however, for the right price I would do it, take a shower, go to the bank and move on with my life. I am lucky enough to not be so desperate for money or work that I am not in a position where I need to do things I don’t want to do.

Hannah: Do your emotions ever get in the way doing this work? Do you experience jealousy within relationships because of it?

James: my emotional state is way to complex and messed up to describe in an interview

Hannah: This was just something I was wondering when I first got into your Burning Angel videos… for a while you did not give oral in the videos. was this personal choice or it just never came up in those videos?

James: I love going down on girls. The scenes that I don’t do it in are because the majority of directors don’t care about shooting it because the majority of viewers don’t care to watch it. i get into the habit of performing for certain people who aren’t interested so when I work for someone for the first time and they don’t tell me what they want I will perform the way the majority or people ask me to.

Hannah: What would James Deen be doing if he weren’t a porn star?

James: i would be in school

INTERVIEW AFTERTHOUGHTS:

Hey, James: If your reading this I wanted to ask you. What would you go to school for!?

I find it fascinating that he says people don’t want to see woman being eaten out. What the fuck!? I love porn but this is a perfect example of the problem with most porn. Women shouldn’t receive pleasure? Women are just a face to cum on? I am so sick of that bullshit idea. I’m hoping to continue doing porn star/sex worker  interviews from all facets of the industry. Start some fuckin’ dialogue and shit, ya know? Wow, I’m sleeeeeeeeepy.  Are you a porn artist? A sex work? Wanna chat on my website. I’m game! Bring it on you beautiful sluts!

Tomorrow I plan to continue working on this site. I also have a shitload of cuttin n’ pasting’ to do for Ax Wound. This issue is  SO HUGE. It’s got heft man! Also, coming soon a brand spank me new episode of ZINECORE RADIO with a very exciting guest! Stay tuned!

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H. Neurotica

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